How can I be such an eager slave
Yet slow to please my God?
I run for my master
Yet crawl for you.
I know my debt is not due
Nor will it err be
Because I am cruel
And you are too.

I would hate leaving you
But I hate to stay
I hate to be the cause of ur pain
Yet knowing it would exist anyways
Is no excuse for me to laze…

Scorn this hypocrite and refuse
Smash me on your altars
Yet I’m still confused…

Should I fulfill my fantasies just once
And possibly be lost forever
Or sustain myself on thoughts alone
And never reach Earth’s heaven?

My sin is a dark forest
And there are many lights…
I guess which are fake and which are true
But am lost at what to do.
Fear for me Lord
As I fear you.
Bind me, willingly, and take hold
Make me your clay to mold

I want you in ways I cannot have
Thus my depression runs mad
Without true love in fleshy form
Whose hand shall mine to conform?

Take these visions from me
Make me your slave and free
Free to please and roam
But at day’s end coming home.

Give me sanctuary from my temptations
Cage my thoughts in holy places
For I have no strength and will to stand
Unless already upon holy land.

So today I got a reply from someone random saying they love me and then sending me porn. Im like wtf? If u love me show me urself coward….

That awkward moment when a random hot stranger makes you drool and you look away and try to hide it.

So I had a dream this morning about being horny. Does that mean I am horny or just my subconscious?

Stay away! Immafuckingcrazy!!!!!!! Bitch please…. Handle my needs… With care. And yes I like long hair. I said I fucking like long hair. So keep it there…